Reality checked. I have to learn to accept it and move on. It's not the end. I have learnt to face it, to swallow the fact and become stronger!

Yes, life is beautiful, because it does not always go your way.
The torturous 3 weeks have finally ended. After all, I did my best. Yes, I did.
For everything that happens, it happens for the best.
I no longer dream, no longer give myself hope and excuses, till a point in which I am disgusted of myself. It's time to wake up. I swear today will be the last day to be sad, the last day to hope and the last day to feel unjustified for whatever that has happened.
Because I'm worth much more, much more than this shit.
For those who think that this is crap, this is no big deal, that is because you have never wanted something as much.

And I SUPER DUPER LOVE MY PARENTS TO BITS. :D They are the best. <3

I am so drained and sickly. Yucks, I can't wait for this period to pass. Probably, not everyone can be so smooth sailing. :)

Interview tomorrow AGAIN.
But this time I am not worried at all. I told myself its only for experience. I mean it's true, it is a bonus that I am shortlisted for NUS business scholarship. So, I have decided to give it a try since I very much would like to improve on my interview skill and the only way to achieve this is to go for more interviews.

Opportunities are for you to grab them! :)

OMG I CANT WAIT. PRETTY!!

Wahh! NUS really attracted me quite a bit. :) It has never crossed my mind that I would actually consider NUS business school but now I got to admit that it has become one of my choices! 5 emails and 2 smses, I have decided to go for that masterclass, since I may end up studying in NUS anyway. Met up with Zhiyuan at Habourfront, at 10 am supposedly. BUT, I was still waiting for train at 955. NOT because I am a pig but because I actually took the wrong side and went the pasir ris way instead of the Joo Koon one. -.- Yah, so I smsed to say that I would be late and guess what, that monster was in the LIFT. Omg lah. Worse than meeeeeeee. I don't know what's wrong with me. When I alighted at Outram to change to the purple line, I TOOK THE WRONG SIDE AGAIN! To punggol instead of Habourfront. ZZZ.

So, We met at around 1045? The thing starts at 11 by the way. :(
We decided to cab to NUS biz school since we were going to be late and we didn't know how to go. The taxi uncle only knows how to go to NUS but not the biz building, so he actually took some time. This means that the cab fare is higher. Finally, we managed to find the building and was about to pay the uncle.
Zy : Uncle, can pay by nets hor?
Uncle: Huh.. No nets machine.

*STUNNED*
WE GOT NOT ENOUGH CASH!!

Zhiyuan only got 3 bucks and I only got 1. OMG. We panicked and panicked, then the uncle was like "hmm nvm lah, just give me any amount that you all have."
SO NICE RIGHT!! :D:D:D Nice uncle. :) But we felt so paiseh.................

and yah we went on for the masterclass.
First thing, FREE TEE SHIRT LEH!! Okay lah, sound damn auntie here but quite cool what.
They actually have a seminar-like thing to let us get a feel of how the lesson is being conducted.
LUNCHEON was cool! It's like a banquet lay out with 10 people sitting together and waitress to serve drinks and clear plates. Then we took food and sat down to have some chat with the prof there and the students there. :) :) :)

Okay, am really attracted to NUS.
Firstly, I seriously don't think that their business school is like the lousiest among the 3 schools. Give them some time and I'm sure their accountancy course will be established too. Secondly, there is this double degree Acct and Econs coming up. So attractive please! They have exchange programmes and attachment too. New biz buiding setting up and the campus is really quite beautiful. The only thing which keeps me going is that it is not a direct honours course. Actually, I don't even mind their 4 years course because I realised that I love campus live after I have graduated. But NTU is more established, and it has always been the school that I wanted. NBS seems sooooo fun.

And it really got me confused when each school is trying to prove their worth. Going to NTU talks and all, their biz school is like so established and popular and nice and fun and blah blah blah, the list goes on. Many people also said that for biz and acct, should just go NTU. But NUS showed us the ranking and they are like better in most of the ranking and is accredited as well. After seeing it, I was like HUH how come it all seems like NUS is better? Yah, some people may say that they will of course choose those better ranked ones to show us. And some will say ALL THE SCHOOLS ARE THE SAME, just depending on where you want to go. TRUE ALSO.

BUT aiyar, don't need to think so much. Maybe NTU doesn't even want me. So, I would have left with one choice. TAADAAH.

Two thumbs up for qianying's post on interview. I can't agree more. Sourcing out the underlying passion in just ten to fifteen minutes is indeed easier said than done. But what's more can they do. Well, this is at least better than accepting anyone just because they have a pretty slip of A level results, without evening questioning their passion, their purposes in that area. Prospect or passion? One can be 100 times more passionate in a particular area as compared to many others, but who will truly appreciate their passion and their longing to become what they want to be. Another can get in easily using their grades or perhaps, their eloquent nature to bring them through the interview. And so again, do they even have the passion? No one will be bothered to find out anyway.

if you haven't received news, it either means your app is still being processed or you're being passed on to your second choice.

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!


is all I want to say from yesterday and today.
I need to rant, but not here.
Anyone wanna lend a listening ear? HAHA.

I swear I'm not going to use my little blue for the rest of this month. :) No more shopping for me. SENTOSA INSTEAD! :D

Today work as usual. Me and Yuen are forever lame because we will talk to each other on msn everyday when we are just sitting beside each other. And so, I randomly mentioned that I'm so excited to go Sentosa again. No reply from her, which is totally unusual. Then, we went toilet.....

Yuen: ME TOO! So excited to go Sentosa!
Jiayi: Wahlao, you super lag lah. I told you that in msn, you now then say this. -.-
Y: Oh yah lah! Because Mrs Chua( our lady boss ) went into our office just now, then I saw her went in but didn't see her go out. I don't dare to open msn!!
J: HUH really meh. I never see her leh. She went into our room? I didnt hear her talk leh.
Y: Yah! She went in.. I think she packing the files in the cupboard. Wahlao, you sit first row leh, still never see.
J: Okay lor.. fine.

After toilet break, we went back into the room.
Y: Eh, Mrs Chua not there alr.
Jiayi started to doubt Yuen...........
So Jiayi went to ask Eli.
J: Eli Eli, just now mrs Chua got come in meh?
E: NO. NO LA.
Jiayi turned to Yuen,
J: Mrs chua never come in lah.
Yuen insisted that she did.
Jiayi went to ask fel.
Fel: huh.. mei you ah. dont have.

WTH YUEN, U ARE IMAGINING.
Fel and Eli and Jiayi ALL LAUGHHHHHHH and Fel said: MRS CHUA WENT IN TO PACK FILE YESTERDAY LA NOT TODAY.
omg yuen, seriously. U ARE SO LAG and hallucinate so much. -.- And not forgetting that you actually broke the paper dispenser in the toilet. The whole thing came off and u conviniently laid it IN THE SINK! Poor toilet auntie.... ):

YAY! NO MORE INTERVIEWSSSSSSSS! :D BIG SMILEY!
(and look at this, I can't imagine I'm actually using orange. Please don't kill me, Jiemin. =P)

So, NTU interview went past just like that. Thanks for all the encouragements again friendsss. :) And thank my tour guide for ntu, Darren Koh, and tour guide for SMU Jasmin Tan Jiemin.

I'm glad that I'm going back to work tomorrow. Checked my bank account today and got a shocked. :X

This week is going to be a happening week. :D:D:D:D

HAPPY BIRTHDAY PRISCILLA OH DAN QI! <3

Hello, it's 9:14 p.m and I really hope that tomorrow can be over SOON! :D I hate to face it but I hope that it will be over. Oh no!

Talking to eli,
she was telling me that she went around looking for blogs that write on uni interviews. So, I asked her to help me find any ntu accountancy ones, was hoping to find some encouragement for myself.
And here goes,

* E(: // above all. says:
blog A:
ntu called me for an interview to get into accountancy but i screwed it

THANKS. Blah. ): SO DEMORALISING CAN. aiyoooo

OH AND YOU ARE SO WELCOME PRISSY! :D :D :D
This is quite funny.
Quote from pris' blog :

Chocolate ice cream, which jiayi tricked me by saying that she wanted to eat and asked me which flavour is good. LOL, obviously i pointed to the chocolate one. which is so clever cos they wrote exactly "chocolate ice cream" in the note they gave me! I'm so predictable! AND NO WONDER JIAYI SAY THAT SHE WANT TO GO VIVO CITY'S TOILET AND REFUSE TO GO TO HARBOUR FRONT CENTRE'S TOILET LA! So sly!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

There was this yeart they gotten me a GREEN BEAR when jiayi knew that I hate green lorrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr. :((((((((So evil.

HAHAHA PRIS! NOW THEN YOU KNOW IM EVIL MEHHHHHHH! taadaah, LOVE YOU TOO! hugs. :)

Maybe one day money will just drop from the sky, right in front of me, for me to pick them and head straight to Singtel retail to get this chio little thing. :) Omg, am totally in love with this.

Vitamin M please......?

I actually hate today. Good Friday is not that good after all. :)

(except for the morning part though, beacause we passed prissy her present!)

The rest of today was crap. Of course not about the people I met. I was happy to meet up with Yuen and SL, beacause they are always spastic as usual.

But the weather was...... :/ Look at that spastic Yuen, seriously.

Beloveds in hong kong! :D


gfsssss. :D

I am missing them alrrrrrrrdy. Hello beloveds. :)

I swear I'm going to watch devil beside you again from the start! :D Probably after the whole interview thing. I'm very loyal okkkkkkkk. :) :) :)

Good friends are those who will take the initiative to start a conversation.
Good friends are those who will keep the conversation going.
Good friends are those who will feel uneasy when they have not been meeting you for a period.
Good friends are those who will always update you about their attendance for gatherings.
Good friends will always reply you.
Good friends will always be there even after graduation.

So, who are you?

Sweet but empty talks are nothing.
No more expectations after a ten thousand million times.

So, do I still trust you?


Take people's words as a pinch of salt, will things get better?
Nah, it just crossed my mind. Somehow, we tend to overlooked things, we tend to think too much into things, we suspect and assume more than necessary, and we expect too much of people, no? Move on move on, easier said than done. But so far, I'm managing well enough. Keep that little sweet memory in that special compartment of your heart. Be just a little bit absent minded and forget all those that are meant to be forgotten. Get immuned to that little emotions that crossed your path everday and hopefully become numb, to reach the incredible state of life. *Applause!*

Sometimes, a word of encouragement can really minimize your nervousness. I'm glad to have plenty of them. :)

Interview was alright I guess? Plenty of questions being asked but some were expected. One down and I hope for the best. One more and I will be free till August! No more anxiety yay.

Hello. It's amazing because I'm sleeping at 11pm. :) Nights the entire universe.

So I ended up with 2 blisters on my leg after that basketball match with Yuan, Sweeliang, Ryan and Fred. ): It's all ryan's fault because he insisted that I should play along. But I did enjoy myself lah. Haha.

Went back to TJ at around 5 plus for council campfire after Xinmin Sec homecoming with SL and Fred. Was supposed to do henna using my 10 dollars coupon. I was happily choosing and waiting for my turn to come, and yay finally so I just went to sit down and give the person my hand. Then halfway through the thing, I'm like "OH SHIT!". The person shocked, she thought she did wrongly. And I went, " OMG, cannot do alr. Sorry because I have interview on monday. I dont want to go with flowery hands." So, I offered the 10 bucks to them though they wanted to refund. It's my fault because I'm damn blur can. D:

So we cabbed down to TJ and meet Ryan. Had bball game first while waiting for the campfire to start. Yayness, cus saw seniors and 31st council. :) Talked some crap and Uni stuff. Stupid Ziko was like asking me if I want to stay in hostel. I'm like yessssssss. So he said that there are many things going on in hall. you know, like sex. LOL. But hall life fun what. :)))) Oh man, I seriously miss school life like mad mad mad.

Guess what, TMR IS MY INTERVIEW!! :D

Tomorrow is friday, tomorrow is friday, tomorrow is friday people! :D
Am feeling really tired because of the long journey I guess. ): Everyday reach home at around 8 plus. But well, for the sake of money and my urge to shoppppppppp, I shall work! I didnt spend much since like one month ago ok. So proud of myself.

Have no appetite these few days. I think there is something wrong with my digestive system. HAHA. I think I can go without food for one whole day. ):
My mom is damn cute. She thought I am like too scared for the upcoming interviews, that's why I don't have the mood to eat. HAHA!! NOT SO SERIOUS LAH. -.-

Talked to Nicholas the XIANG GUANG just now. So long didn't talk to him already, though we coincidentally saw each other a few times. He was like so encouraging. (Hello, if you happened to read this, you are honourably mentioned in my blog okay!)

Oh and forgot to mention that Mr Tan is so nice lar.
On the 30th of March, I smsed him.
ME: "Mr Tan! I have submitted the essay, please help me send the appraisal. Deadline is 1st April. thankyouuu. :)"
HIM: "1st April? SO RUSH?!?!?!?!?!?!?!??!?!??!?!??!?!?!??!?!?!!"
ME: "huh really meh. omg, sorry. i thought quite fast. :x"
HIM: "well ok lah, for you we rushed :) "
Wah limfengyi, I think not bad, you can continue to let him stay at your house. Forget about all the others weird people living in your house alr. HAHA!

OK I AM REALLY SUPER SLEEPY! D:

I''m feeling incredibly tired. ): maybe a bit emo, that's why. haha! I have started working like, again and somehow I realised that my working distance is getting futher and further. Got my first job at outram park, second at buona vista and now in clementi. Goodness. I always tell myself to get a nearer job everytime but it just got further and further. -.- One good thing is that I no longer have to squeeze with people in the mrt every morning alr! :D I can take eli's dad's car every morning and can sleep in the car. :)

Come to think of it, I must really really thank my friends!
First job thanks to Fish.
Second thanks to Mushroom for the application form and Fred for helping me bug the HR.
Third is Yuen.
Great friends around me, and how can I do without all of you?

Probably that's the reason why I am so dependent. There are always people to bring me around when I'm not sure of the directions. Always people there to help me out and encourage me when I'm facing problems. I'm so blessed, I know. But I really wish that I can be a little more independent too. I think I should start off by having better direction sense, so that I will not fear travelling alone.

Next Monday is SMU interview. I'm so hoping that this week can past slowly. But somehow, I want all these to pass quickly, get over and done with them. ): Ironic isn't it? I realised that I can't hide my worries and fear. HAHA. I'm so amused. :X

Found this randomly on blog.
"And then jiayi will start talking about accountancy and biz interviews and new updates on the brightsparks forum which we check out and analyse everyday and she'll start worrying away."

nimp. says:
tt is why u super scared
nimp. says:
as if ur life liek gonna to be ripped off from u

and Fish was saying that I'm stupid because she is trying to encourage but I remained unconvinced.


-WiNi -TJ [ CG 1807] the 31st!hope u r happie cos u make mi smile everyday! says:
im very very confident for u leh!
-WiNi -TJ [ CG 1807] the 31st!hope u r happie cos u make mi smile everyday! says:
hahahah
-WiNi -TJ [ CG 1807] the 31st!hope u r happie cos u make mi smile everyday! says:
i really think u can de
-WiNi -TJ [ CG 1807] the 31st!hope u r happie cos u make mi smile everyday! says:
must believe in urself n me!

hahha so sweet right.
:)
SO I GUESS I HAVE TO BE MORE CONFIDENT! LALALALA