I watched it twice.
First was to get this whole thing into me. I was shocked at the sudden surge of emotions.
Second was to get immune to it.
I really felt better.
It's a great day isn't it? Ought to celebrate. Every story has an end to it. I'm still human afterall, just that a part of me is well hidden.

Move on move on. :)
INTERVIEWS!! D: D: D: D: D:

AND SO, I AM THE ROAD QUEEN OF THE YEAR! YAY x 8475892374892384092834.
nimp. says:
stall how many times
jiayiiii. cause i never leave my heart open, never hurts me to say goodbye. says:
1
nimp. says:
wah
nimp. says:
stall once nia
jiayiiii. cause i never leave my heart open, never hurts me to say goodbye. says:
pro right!!
jiayiiii. cause i never leave my heart open, never hurts me to say goodbye. says:
HAHAHHA
nimp. says:
ya
nimp. says:
summore u first lesson ubi
nimp. says:
i tt time first lesson at kallang stadium there no cars still stall more than once
nimp. says:
see u got talent wif driving
nimp. says:
hu noes u are the road queen
jiayiiii. cause i never leave my heart open, never hurts me to say goodbye. says:
road queen without direction sense?

Of course I cancel out all the stupid emoticon that darrenkoh used. like :S :S :S :S :S THIS.
He passed his TP today. Since I'm the road queen, I CAN TOO! WAHAHAHA

Today is thursday? Another week is zooming past so fast!
Woke up earlier today at 1130, by Zhiyuan's sms. She was called to go for NTU interview already.

I woke up and finished up my essay. It is really not fantastic but I don't think I can help it anyway because my standard is just like that. Even if I am not shortlisted for an interview, I know I have tried my best. Yes, my BEST. :D Sms Mr Calvin Tan for appraisal, but until now I still don't know where to get that form.

Got a call at around 1 plus from SMU. Asking me down for an interview like next week. I was scared. ): hahaha. I mean I don't know what to expect and what to prepare. It's just one week away.

Then I was complaining that why NTU haven't call me because I actually submitted the application to NTU much earlier than SMU. Maybe because they didn't want me.

AND I got a call from NTU at 4 plus for an interview too. Sighhhhh. Was hoping that there will be no interview if I am just going to take a single degree course. But well, blame it on my GP result.

I guess I would have to go for NUS interview too. April is the interview month and I'm like so screwed omg. Just hope for the best. :)

Had my first practical lesson today! :D Driving is really quite fun but a bit scary at first though. I couldn't really juggle well between my left and right feet. Like cannot coordinate the clutch and acceleration pedal. HAHA. With no direction sense and stupid coordination, I'm really putting lots of hope in people around me to hurry pass their driving test and drive me around. ( Of course not you limfengyi, just in case you think I'm pinning hopes on you HAAHHA)

I passed my FTT! (hello Limfengyi and Triciagoh. :D)
Am going to start on my first practical lesson tomorrow at 5!
And after that dragggggg myself to vivo to meet Yuen for dinner.
Shall finish up my essay by tomorrow afternoon before lesson.
Please start looking for a job and stop stoning at home like a cockraoch because you can only stop worrying by distracting yourself with workkk.
Heeeeeeheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.

MAY! :) :) :)
Anyway! I am sooooo looking forward to MAY! I think May is a good month. :D In May, I will be able to get a new phone because my plan will be ending! This is so exciting. :) In May, we will all know our posting results and all the uncerntainty, worrying, disappointment, dilemma will just stop there and then. Accept it and move on. :) In May, means its nearer to August and school is starting soon! Hooray to the reopening of school! :)

I think I'm like an irritating cockroach because I can't stop worrying. I seriously can't help it and I think that I am entitled to feel a little worried because of that pretty D grade in my results slip. I mean, I am happy enough to get a D because I thought I would fail my GP but yes, provided I get into the course I want. But somehow, that D is hindering me.. ):

Have been quite a top fan of Brightsparks forum, because I can only dig many things on NBS interview from there.

" GP D from what i heard that going to hurt your chance for a double degree! As double degree they would often expect extraordinary personal to think out of the box "

" not be to be a pessimist or anything. but NTU is very famous (or infamous) for placing huge emphasis on GP grades.. even for the single degree, your GP grade would put you at a major disadvantage.. "

I GOT TO SAY THAT I HAVE REASONS TO FEEL SCARED AND WORRIED AND PESSIMISTIC OK.
and now I know how much damage GP can do to you. ):

I'm not the type to get my heart broken
I'm not the type to get upset and cry'
Cause I never leave my heart open
Never hurts me to say goodbye

Relationships don't get deep to me
Never got the whole 'in love' thing
And someone can say they love me truly
But at the time it didn't mean a thing

My mind is gone, I'm spinnin' 'round
And deep inside my tears I'll drown
I'm losin' grip, what's happenin'?
I strayed from love, this is how I feel

This time was different
Felt like I was just a victim
And it cut me like a knife
When you walked out of my life

Now I'm in this condition
And I've got all the symptoms
Of a girl with a broken heart
But no matter what you'll never see me cry

Did it happen when we first kissed?
'Cause it's hurtin' me to let it go
Maybe 'cause we spent so much time
And I know that it's no more

I shoulda never let you hold me baby
Maybe why I'm sad to see us apart
I didn't give to you on purpose
Gotta figure out how you stole my heart

My mind is gone, I'm spinnin' 'round
And deep inside my tears I'll drown
I'm losin' grip, what's happenin'?
I strayed from love, this is how I feel

This time was different
Felt like I was just a victim
And it cut me like a knife
When you walked out of my life

Now I'm in this condition
And I've got all the symptoms
Of a girl with a broken heart
But no matter what you'll never see me cry

How did I get here with you? I'll never know
I never meant to let it get so personal
And after all I tried to do, stay away from lovin' you
I'm broken hearted, I can't let you know
And I won't let it show, you won't see me cry

This time was different
Felt like I was just a victim
And it cut me like a knife
When you walked out of my life

Now I'm in this condition
And I've got all the symptoms
Of a girl with a broken heart
But no matter what you'll never see me cry

This time was different
Felt like I was just a victim
And it cut me like a knife
When you walked out of my life(You'll never see me cry)

Now I'm in this condition
And I've got all the symptoms
Of a girl with a broken heart
But no matter what you'll never see me cry
On my life

Just a few random things to blog about.

- NUS is really big and I didn't know that until today.
- I cut my fringe today omg.
- NTU business school interview is scaring me.
- I'm incredibly pro to find someone's blog in less than 3 minutes, without even knowing if she has one but deeply believe that she will have one.
- I need to exercise.
- When should I start finding job?

Okay, actually the thing that bothers me the most now is the 3rd point. I wonder when will I receive the call. My future will be based on that 10 minutes interview. Omg Jiayi, you can do it for sure. Please have some faith in yourself. If I cannot manage to attain my first choice, please at least give me my second choice. That's all I want. :)

I hope time flies faster, for now.

JIAYI IS HAPPY! :D
I have finally survived through this entire jobless week. It is really tough trying to find things to do every single day and to think that I may have to live through many many such weeks before I can even find another job. Yah, finding job is really easier said than done. I have realised that, thank you.

Settled with uni application! ( err, did I mention that before? ) But left the SMU payment and sending of supporting documents which I will get it done chop chop latest by Monday. And yes, I have unsuccessfully started on my essay and this really bothers me quite a bit. Hello, English is not my forte and now what, I have to go through another essay writing? Argh. Yah, I choose to apply for it, I know. Okay, shall leave that for next week, probably heading to NLB with fish to do some MUGGING. LOL zzz. Mugging is such a foreign word to me now.

Hopefully a new job will come once I get all these done, because by then, I will really be bored to death. Now I still have my FTT to study for and that really kind of keeps me occupied. Blah, but I think I'm gonna fail FTT this time round. No mood to study for it, seriously.

Anyway, I feel so high! :D Because I just went for beloved 1807 gathering just now at xj house to celebrate fred and yuang's birthday yo! Miss them soooooo much. Me and fish met up at around 3 plus to do some grocery shopping and got a cake for them. We carried those super heavy bags and walked all the way from cityhall to bugis and took 12 to xj house, and intend to cook spaghetti for everyone! Guess what, when we reached there, tantujin actually baked a cake already and xj's mum cooked spag for us. T.T Wasted trip and effort larrrrrrrrr. That sickening bus 12 took more than an hour to reach his house please.

Okay, nevertheless, we still had lots of fun! Like super love hanging out with them. Woohoo, byebye to army boys! They are all going back to camp this monday because block leave has ended.

Thanks to Fish's dad for the ride home and now I'm super sleeeeeeeepy. Tomorrow is a busy day again! Gonna study for my FTT tomorrow, and shall not drag anymore. TAAA!

Life without job is totally boring. Nono, I should say that life with people around you working other than yourself, is super duper boring. No friends are free to go out with me and no money to go out and enjoy myself. Staying at home is a torture, at least to me.

Settled all my uni application and now only left the payment part. I feel like going to library and start reading up on different things. Maybe I should just go to some cafe and read my book. Sounds good right. :D
Perhaps I should learn to be independent and have more direction sense, so that I wouldn't fear travelling alone.

Aiyar, I suddenly feel this post is super meaningless to even continue. HAHA. byeeee.

I have finally concluded that I am 100% void of human affections.
Lim Fengyi, you are so right.
I feel that my heart is made of rock.

I don't feel sad, when I ought to be.
I don't feel touched, when I ought to be.
I don't feel happy, when I ought to be.

I just feel like-that-lor.
:D

Congrats, I have reached the incredible state of life! :)

Hello, look who's talking. Seriously.

Yah I'm seriously holding back now.
I just SO hate this.
DAMN IT

Hello all, tomorrow is my last day at work.
Finally been told that my contract will not be extending, so have to just find another job i guess. No worries about that actually because meanwhile I can settle all my stuff.

Uni application open now, so probably I would want to look and read through all the courses in Uni before applying. First choice is more or less confirm, just a matter of whether they want me. The rest of my choices, I still need to think through them thoroughly.

Scholarship application is also open. Wondering if I should just try for other scholarship, besides the Uni scholarship that I am trying to apply with my lousy sucky ugly D for gp. DAMN.

Taking PDL like soooooon, so that I can seriously start my driving lesson. Told myself that I am going to get the liscence before school reopen. :)

Just to get more rest. I feel real tired. I MEAN REALLY TIRED due to insufficient sleep. -.-
LALA


and thanks for this.

Weijie says:
they look at h2 only.
Weijie says:
u all As
Weijie says:
i promise u sure get in..

I HOPE SO.
OMG.

One week usually passes in a breeze with things on after work! :)
Today, tomorrow and the day after are all occupied and these seriously give me motivation to just work and work to pass the time real fast.

Went to meet Fish, Tri and Yuang after work to visit Mr Lim. Was hoping to see the board with our pretty names there, but Mrs Lim still doesn't have the time as yet to post them up. Looks like our batch really scored damn well for econs this time. The number of As increased amazingly. Goodness. The problem is that our paper is tough but maybe that is the reason why. Crazy moderation?
Tj finally scored well in Econs. The percentage has been so pathetic until this year. (I think.)
Anyway, wrote a card to Mr Lim to thank his super duper good teaching, which really drill that oh-so-foreign Econs into me. Thinking of the "S" in my prelim really makes me shiver. But oh well.. :) Really had a good good laugh with them. Fish and Tri both applying for medicine and is like soooo tough. But put in your best and I know I will see 2 doctors in the future! :D

. i am tantujin says:
won't la haha have some faith, you can surely get anywhere/thing you want to go/get

. i am tantujin says:
i don't care, you'll get it, just go try

Yah, I should just stop worrying and try everything I can.
I should know what I want in life.

Like what Darren koh had said, like what Png Zhiyuan had said.
JUST TRY! :D

I guess I'm a bit slow here. Friday was the big day that all of us took our results, and here I am posting it only on Monday. Actually, nothing to talk about besides I am really satisfied with my results. Honestly, I have never never gotten an "A" in my entire JC life and now it finally surfaced on that small piece of result slip. :) I am glad. No, much more than glad.

Human is greedy. I was telling most of my friends that I am going to fail GP and that I will be contented if I passed it. But now, I think D is really not good enough. I am contented still, of course. But I wish I could have gotten just 1 grade better and save all the trouble. I might have a higher chance of getting into my dear dear very dear accountancy course in NTU! Now, I am afraid of rejection.

90% of my heart really go all out for accountancy. Fish knows how much I want this course. HAHA

Png Zhi Yuan, imagine we both get into the same course. OMG, that feels damn great lah, seriously. :D

Okay, now that results are over, I am gonna pray so damn hard that I can get into the course I want. :)

What kind of person are you?

Your view on yourself:
You are intelligent, honest and sweet. You are friendly to everybody and don't like conflict. Because you're so cheerful and fun people are naturally attracted to you and like to talk to you.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:
You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love.

Your views on education:
Education is less important than the real world out there, away from the classroom. Deep inside you want to start working, earning money and living on your own.

The right job for you:
You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:
You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.

What are you most afraid of:
You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear.

Who is your true self:
You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

You desire a love that will last forever. You are quite serious about finding this type of love, and that's why you think carefully about the men that you meet before deciding whether you could really love them. You don't just develop a crush on someone overnight: you look at a person's personality and other aspects of their life before deciding to form an attachment. If a guy doesn't meet your expectations, you would rather be alone. Your love has to be perfect. Be careful though, you could be missing out on some worthy relationships because your standards are so high.

OMG THIS IS SOOOOO DAMN TRUE CAN.

Hello all, the worse is over because Friday is over! :D
Like I said in the previous post, good or bad, life still goes on.
Yes, easier said than done of course.

Now it's 12:51 and hello Saturday! :D

Going to SMU open house tomorrow with yuen, yuan and sl.



and i guess its still you.. :)

Hello. I'm going to be cool about tomorrow too! :D

Good or bad, life still goes on........

Nothing much to say except that it's ONE day away people! Oh my god, I seriously can't believe this. Whenever I wish Friday will come fast, it always crawls its way to me. But now, wow time rocketed! It don't even need to fly.

Have been planting myself into eclipse. Hopefully I can distract myself from this coming nightmare.

"I'll be back so soon you won't have the time to miss me.
Look after my heart -- I've left it with you. "

Look, how sweet is this?

There isn't a need to blog about this Friday, because I guess everyone has already heard about it, be it on air or rumours or crazily chance upon this MOE website during work and saw that small yet daunting yellow box at the top right hand corner with black solid workds saying that GCE A level results will be released on this coming Friday.
Yes I'm HOLY MAMA SCARED.
No questions on results will be so so ever greatly appreciated on Friday. I don't wish to entertain any, be it good or bad or acceptable. I'm just going to forget about my phone.

Damn.

So going to enjoy myself this week. I am not trying to sound so hopeless and serious here but I really feel soooooo #&$*(#$&*%& lah. And so, I went to watch Slumdog millionaire today with png monster. Creative plot though.
Wouldn't it be great if I am really THAT lucky? Jamal became a millionaire because all the questions that came out are those that he chanced upon in his life. Not that he is a genius, he need not be one. How I wish i chance upon every questions that came out during A levels before.

Well, this is just a movie.

I shall be good and work on Thurs, take leave on Friday.
Friday..................... AHHHH.

Look at the time now it's 1223 and I'm still not sleeping. There's work tomorrow and that freaking long journey with no seats on the mrt even upon reaching cityhall. I just slept my 5 to 930 away and I'm seriously energetic now. This is bad, because I am gonna be restless tomorrow at work. bahh.

This week was spend with happiness I supposed. :)
Meet up with my class on Thurs to celebrate Miss wong's birthday. Went to dine at Hooters and looked at the sexy babes there with nice legs. O.O None of us drink though, and that's an achievement.
Meet up with Yuen on friday. Guess what, I waited for her for more than an hour in ps without getting lost! Really proud of myself although it's like no big deal for some of you, but my friends all understand this. Got the last few tickets of He's just not that into you and then went starbucks, bought chocolate cream chip and enjoyed the third book of MY Edward. awww.
The show was nice, but not fantastic though. I really couldn't bring myself to agree what that GIGI had done in the earlier part of the show laaaaaaaaaa. It's just toooooooo despo, OMG. But who knows, since I'm living in self denial, I will probably end up like her one day. hahaha!!

Sat and Sun were spent with family. My cousin got married! Went to her house for the tea ceremony on Sat and attend her ROM and banquet on Sun. This is like so cool and she is really pretty on her big day. So cool....! Have 3 cousins wedding in 2009. So, I have 3 dinners to attend and have to spend more money to get more pretty dresses.

Okay....... 1233 now.
Time for bed?


HAPPY BIRTHDAY MR SNAIL LEE XIANG RUI! :D
( I refuse to call you prince here. =P )

杨丞琳 - 在你怀里的微笑

可以吗
让我和你对调
希望换成你爱我爱得快要疯掉

知道吗
你对我多重要
只是现在的我们并不适合拥抱

爱随着风飘荡
飘过了你嘴角
飘到天涯海角
把我困在这城堡
哪里也逃不了

我不要别人温柔的怀抱
听不见你的心跳
连我熟悉的味道
再也闻不到
我只要你喊我一次就好
从前亲昵的暗号
多想再次亲耳听到

让我暂时的依靠
那是短暂止痛药
很快会失效
你只要再哄我一次就好
让我可以很骄傲

记住我拥有过的好
记住在你怀里微笑

Me and Yuen are officially recruited in Self-denial Club. :)
Reason is simple -- because we love to live in self denial. HAHA!

Sounds dumb?
But trust me, women always love to live in their own world, believing in their own theories and try to uphold their market values. HAHAHA.