I think I need to just sit back and think about what I want in life. Sometimes, I tend to lose my way. Everything has been properly planned out since the day we entered kindergarden, with no specialisation and just study what the curriculum provides. What's more, I chose the JC route and thus not having to think what I really want in life as yet. But of course, I very much know what I really want now.

It has never occured to me that there are a good number of people competing the same thing as I do. Having to think about how smart or hardworking they are, I admit that I am scared now. As in really at this very moment. But there is nothing I can do about my results because it's now in the hands of Cambridge. Our results may already be calculated and typed out nicely, lying at some random corner without us knowing.

A vigourously competition since PSLE to get into whatever dream secondary school we wanted. Followed by O level, to get into the JC we hope that would provide us with better education. Then comes the A level, which determines our courses in Uni and finally our career in life. Everyone wants to get into the course they very much interested in and that makes some courses exceptionally popular than the others. Limited vancancy causes the requirements and standards to raise intensively and all we can do is to fight for ourselves. If we are smart or holistic enough, we get into the course we want, but things do not end here. Go on and compete among the cream of the crops, to get the first class honour everyone adores. Be the top 10% and secure a place in the society. Countless of such cycles go on and on, so when will this ever stops? No, not when you are still alive.

Well, come to think of it, we have been given a chance to prove ourselves.
But now it's over. There is no use in worrying so much because there is nothing we can do about our current results now. No matter how much we want that particular course, just pray that the effort will eventually pays off.

Having said that, results will most likely be out before 6 March since Uni application is on the 6th. Sooooo, results should released around late Feb.

Happy Valentine's Day.