Oh my god! My dear cousin finally got together with the guy whom she likes for damn damn long. So happy for her la can. So sweeeeeeeeeet. And they got together on my birthday! ( yah this is so not the point, but I don't care) See, fast enough for vday!

I remember she once told me, " wah, ask him to be together with me is like wanting his life lah! "

HAHA.
BUT NOW IS LIKE AWWWWWWWWWWWWW. :D:D


See people, a perfect example to encourage everyone not to lose hope in love! HAHAHA.

Oh no, I am kind of addicted to that "note application" in facebook. HAHA. Initially I was like so lazy to answer any of those questions posted to me and now I went around looking for new note to post. It's quite fun actually. :D

Time randomly passes fast these few days during work. Probably because I managed to secure myself with a computer and start to msn whole day. I think work dampens my mood. ): I'm not being myself these few days and became unusually quiet. ( or probably I am quiet all the time just that I never know that! :D:D ) Seriously, I think I need my pretty girlfriends badly.
Everyday I will just go to work, all the way till 6 and reach home around 7. Settle for dinner and then start to decide if I should:
1. Watch HK drama
2. Watch Taiwan drama
3. Study FTT
4. Read Eclipse
5. Practice piano

Other than that, I would pretty much like to meet up with my friendssss. :)


Does "next week" sounds FAST?
Like, "Oh results are coming out NEXT WEEK"
Oh my god, and no matter how no confidence I am, I am still hopeful. And because of that, I'm afraid of disappointment.

"Aiyar, results also not out yet. You may not score badly, so don't think so much."
OR
"Whatever it is, everything is fixed. Scared so much also no use because things are just going to be what it is"

How not to think and how not to be scared?

Have no idea why, but today is a very tiring day. Just reached home not long ago and I'm really feeling very lethargic. Probably due to the walking just now or the SMU talk.

Okay, Lim Fengyi is super nice by sending this to me.
".......... Haha you're human after all haha i once thought you're void of human affections........"

WAH THANKS LA.
Do I really seem so abnormal just because I don't have EYECANDIESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSssssssssssssssssssssssssSSSSSS like you do?! :D

I am going to sleep as much as I can tomorrow if there isn't any plan!
Sleeping is seriously my favourite thing now.

For the past 2 weeks, today is the busiest day ever! ):
Well, it is actually a good thing because time passed super fast and I'm happily off from work in no time!

Supposed to meet Jasmin at 6, but she is late so I just went to walk around with Ceph and ZI. This sickening girl, late already still want to scare me with her scary baby face outside diva la. I almost jumped. -.- Went to dine at Fin and blabbered a lot while we eat. Was telling her my utmost kun rao thing while walking. Blah. I guess no one else knows what to do but meeeeeeeee me me me me.

Anyway, thank you for the super sweet present. :) I really do love it a lot!

OMG.........
I'm feeling very very tired nowwwwwww.
Going for SMU talk tomorrow on accounting.
Come to think of it, results are out either on this coming week or next week.
Whatever it is, it's like super duper near and I'm really getting more worried each dayyyyyyyy.

ZZZZZZZZZZZZZzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzZZZZZZZZZZzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

Picture yourself walking aimlessly in a toy shop, glancing through every single thing that went passed you. Randomly, you chanced upon this very beautiful toy and really couldn't take your eyes off that thing. You thought for a while, and decided to not buy because you thought that it was so unnecessary.
For another next 2 days, you would always want to walk back the same route, and looked out for that toy and admire it secretly. In your heart, you are dying to have one.
But lucky thing just happened. Someone just dropped lots of money on the floor and you happily picked them up. You rushed to the toy shop almost immediately to buy that lovely toy. You hugged it for the next 3 days and it had never left your side.
On the fourth day, you started to have lesser liking for the toy.
You start to wonder why. Initially, you really like that toy a lot and now, it may not be that attractive to you anymore.

Could it be because, it just came so easily?
Or it is because, that toy is not really to your liking?
Maybe, you will not cherish it as much once you get your hands on it.






istarttonotunderstandmyself.

It all feels like a dream..............

THANK YOU ZHIYUAN FOR INTRODUCING "ALMOST LOVER" SONG TO ME. :D:D
Yes, I have given you credit for that okay. :D

I actually scare myself even more today because I thought of getting the results the entire day. I don't know what is actually wrong with me. Suddenly lose all the confidence in myself and I just don't know how are things going to be like.

Talking to pngzhiyuan, and she scared me even more by telling me results are going to be out.

And then we started to diverseeeeeeee. :X

breeze. says:
i only have 2 conclusions
breeze. says:
1. despo
breeze. says:
2. right one.
breeze. says:
BUT
breeze. says:
how do we know that its the right one
breeze. says:
so means = despo

yuann Appris a vivre says:
3. infatuation (due to prolonged solitude)
yuann Appris a vivre says:
= not despo, normal reaction
yuann Appris a vivre says:
= human, not vampire/ chimpanzee


breeze. says:
AHHAHAHAHAHAHAA
breeze. says:
trueeee though. it does make sense. :/

well, exact details are not supposed to be elaborated. :X

Almost Lover - A Fine Frenzy

Your fingertips across my skin
The palm trees swaying in the wind
Images

You sang me Spanish lullabies
The sweetest sadness in your eyes
Clever trick

I never want to see you unhappy
I thought you'd want the same for me

Goodbye, my almost lover
Goodbye, my hopeless dream
I'm trying not to think about you
Can't you just let me be?
So long, my luckless romance
My back is turned on you
Should've known you'd bring me heartache
Almost lovers always do

We walked along a crowded street
You took my hand and danced with me
Images

And when you left you kissed my lips
You told me you would never let forget these images, no

I never want to see you unhappy
I thought you'd want the same for me
Goodbye, my almost lover
Goodbye, my hopeless dream
I'm trying not to think about you
Can't you just let me be?
So long, my luckless romance
My back is turned on you
Should've known you'd bring me heartache
Almost lovers always do

I cannot go to the ocean
I cannot drive the streets at night
I cannot wake up in the morning
Without you on my mind
So you're gone and I'm haunted
And I bet you are just fine
Did I make it that easy
To walk right in and out of my life?

Goodbye, my almost lover
Goodbye, my hopeless dream
I'm trying not to think about you
Can't you just let me be?
So long, my luckless romance
My back is turned on you
Should've known you'd bring me heartache
Almost lovers always do

Retail therapy always makes me happy! :D
before updating the my bankbook of course.

你把我当成石膏
再不跟我吵
是不是一种预告
假装都看不到
不再重要
我不会再跟你闹

无言是一种毒药
更像一把刀
切开我们的拥抱
到底爱剩多少
需要思考
承诺随爱蒸发掉

不想再当配角
安静让我动摇
我想逃跑
我听到你冷战的心跳
两败俱伤的记号
闪躲不了

我知道
莫名其妙求饶
也不会是解药
不如弃权走掉
面对冷的空气
冷的墙壁
冷到昏迷
难道我真的快窒息
冷战到何时能平息
放我离去
就让回忆停止呼吸 成冰

I think I need to just sit back and think about what I want in life. Sometimes, I tend to lose my way. Everything has been properly planned out since the day we entered kindergarden, with no specialisation and just study what the curriculum provides. What's more, I chose the JC route and thus not having to think what I really want in life as yet. But of course, I very much know what I really want now.

It has never occured to me that there are a good number of people competing the same thing as I do. Having to think about how smart or hardworking they are, I admit that I am scared now. As in really at this very moment. But there is nothing I can do about my results because it's now in the hands of Cambridge. Our results may already be calculated and typed out nicely, lying at some random corner without us knowing.

A vigourously competition since PSLE to get into whatever dream secondary school we wanted. Followed by O level, to get into the JC we hope that would provide us with better education. Then comes the A level, which determines our courses in Uni and finally our career in life. Everyone wants to get into the course they very much interested in and that makes some courses exceptionally popular than the others. Limited vancancy causes the requirements and standards to raise intensively and all we can do is to fight for ourselves. If we are smart or holistic enough, we get into the course we want, but things do not end here. Go on and compete among the cream of the crops, to get the first class honour everyone adores. Be the top 10% and secure a place in the society. Countless of such cycles go on and on, so when will this ever stops? No, not when you are still alive.

Well, come to think of it, we have been given a chance to prove ourselves.
But now it's over. There is no use in worrying so much because there is nothing we can do about our current results now. No matter how much we want that particular course, just pray that the effort will eventually pays off.

Having said that, results will most likely be out before 6 March since Uni application is on the 6th. Sooooo, results should released around late Feb.

Happy Valentine's Day.

I start to lose my mind. This is the first damn time that I wish that today is not Friday, that I do not have to wait for the weekends to past, and that time would just stop right there and then.

For reason I do not wish to elaborate.

So much for being numb towards everything around me, and now, just 10 minutes can destroy me right through.

No, I do not perceive things in this way and I'm always stubborn in my own thinking. So, I refuse to accept whatever is happening in my mind now. Hallucinating have been my favourite past time and it still is. I have to stop this now now and now. Tell me how to stop doing something which you could be doing it subsciously?

I should not be struggling because of this. No way for now.

Saturday, 07 Feb:
Had a wonderful wonderful night with my class! :D Thanks alot for this special and this unforgettable night. Thank you for the present, ideas, the birthday song, for staying out so late that you all have to cab home or take the NRs. Thank you for everything! Not forgetting to thank you all for letting the world know that I'm call LAMEFACE. Goodness. Nevertheless, I really really enjoyed myself. :)

Sunday 08 Feb:
Thank you Prissy HPY for the lunch and oh-so-sinful chocolate ice-cream which i totally love it! Thank you for satisfying my movie craving. YAY! Just like always, I'm so glad to spend the day with you!

Monday 09 Feb:
Hello. Today is my first day of work. Reporting at 830 and work all the way till 6. Okay, the place is quite cool, with smart technology and nice people.
Parents are supposed to bring me out for nice dinner.
GUESS WHAT?
I freakingly spent the rest of the day in the clinic.
Thank you Jiayi for falling sick. D:

Tuesday 10 Feb:
Met up with Zhiyuan and Yuen! :D
Thank you babies for dining and catching up! :D
+ Sweeliang and Ryan ( who are happily camping )
Thank you for the SUPER LOVELY photo album, with my spastic photos pasted thereeeee.
Thank you for the SUPER CUTE cup which seriously tempt me to drink more water!

ALSO!
Thank you so much for people who wished me through sms, msn, fs or fb and weijie who called on sun to wish me because HE IS GOING INTO FOREST ON SUNDAY NIGHT TILL TUES! HAHAHA. :x

and I realised, that the unhappiest day is on the 9th itself. -.-

Suntec mass dance yesterday!
O'night today!
Seriously, how i wish that I am one of the OGL or OGM. ):

Suddenly, I realised how much I miss school, miss hanging with all my friends and miss studying ( zZ I can't believe i said that ). I want to go back to tj..........................................................................
I miss just having fun in the school, with everything planned out for you, with your friends around you whenever you need them and whenever they need you. Hanging out in SC room everyday and stay back late in school just to plan and have fun. Life WAS great. :D

On a very random note, I FEEL LIKE GOING ARMY! HAHAHA.
Went back for O'night today and saw many army boys. Of course I know of the toughness and the discipline portion of army ( I mean I don't exactly know, but somehow know it's tough la ), but it really seems like a unforgettable experience with all your friends there. At least it is like a team thing, but working is so individualistic. D:

Well, happy thing is MEETING 1807 TOMORROW! :D:D:D
Mushroom is going to teach me how to walk to the workplace on Monday. MUSHROOM LEH. Can you imagine, it's someone who also has LIMITED direction sense, is going to teach me TOMORROW. Worse thing is that, I am the one who asked her to. -.- OK I'M MAD.
Hello, if you are reading this, don't kill me tomorrow. :)

There is seriously nothing to be upset about because people DO change. Just like how the moon changes from full to half and half to crescent; Just like how caterpillar changes to beautiful butterfly; Just like how day changes to night and back to day again. One thing different in people -- there is no routine and it's somehow so unpredictable. Well, we do have to accept it, don't we?

Things could have become better or for worse. We have to live it and adapt it. Say hello to the new things or people coming your way and never be daunted by these strangers. Strangers can probably do you good. No one has ever said that someone whom you know long enough will definitely treat you better than someone whom you just know for barely one day.

Step out of the comfort zone and accept the new challenges coming your way.

I passed my basic theory test! :D
Applause please. And now I can give my book away and go for final theory already. Another book of boring theories awaiting.

Nothing to blog about lately. Was wondering if there are Gossip Girls dvd anywhere for me to buy or rent. Watching online is too irritating, because it always stops halfway and it's always at the climax. So, I decided to go for the fastest way, although it's more expensive.

I have the urge to watch many many movies and buy many many clothes. But I'm quite sure that I do not want to see holesssssss in my account, so I'm really trying to control. ): Awful.

Aiyarrrrrrrrrr, bored.

I finally cut my super long nails. ): I miss them. No choice because it has been really long ever since I practice piano again. It's okay, at least I can type faster now! :D

I have finish studying Highway Code! :D Spent almost half a day to complete that irritating book, though I really don't know how much I can remember. I think I will just go and take the test tomorrow andddddddd see how. :X

Went back TJ today with Yuen and got my testimonial! :D Saw Mr Calvin Tan ( hello, limfengyi. ) and he actually laughed at me because he said that I'm super lag to only take the testimonial now. Thanks lah. I'm such a BUSYYYYY person please. HAAAAAA. Look at random OG and hear them cheer. This batch is actually quite enthu so I guess it would be more fun. So going to go for their mass dance at suntec and O night!

Anyway, today is weird. I mean me and Yuen felt weird............ HAHA don't know why.
)):
Imagine you are waiting for a msg or a call from someone, just someone important. The phone rang, and you saw the caller wasn't that someone. How much disappointment is that? I rather the phone doesn't ring at all.

Hello Yuen,
cheer up ok ok.
The best i can do is to give you a HUG here. :)

One month has passed and now it's February. More or less one month to our big day! So, better enjoy every bit now before having to face the monsterous results. OMG.

I am supposed to study for Highway Code today but i ended up reading other book instead. Can't blame me because it's really boring lah.
Going back TJ tomorrow to take a look at the Orientation! :D At the same time, take my testimonial and help Ryan Noo a big favour.

I hope i will receive the call tomorrow..... :)