i wish to walk into a forest and escape from reality. to look at the trees and hear the birds sing, hoping that all the unhappy things will just go away. life is like a routine, not only that you will have to face the same old things everyday, but problems will just keep coming your way. sometimes you think that you have already done enough to the people around you but it ended up otherwise. sometimes you think that you have put in enough effort in something but you will never get the results that you wish in return. sometimes it's just so tired to put up a brave front in front of everybody so that people will just stop asking you what is wrong.

it would be so great if everyone is transparent. if you can know how your love ones are thinking. how to change to become a better person and what is more that you can do to satisfy them.

probably, we can never be good enough.

i want to care for the people around me. i want to do more to let them know that i love them. but i'm such a bottled up person, who can never express what i wish to express. maybe that's my biggest weakness. not low self esteem, not low confidence, not straight forward, but just dense.

hello daddy, please have faith in me. :) and i'll try.