i'm very tired. yeah, very. i don't know. i feel so helpless and unmotivated to study for promos. i feel so out suddenly. i feel everything is not right. i feel that things are not going the way i want it to be. yep, i don't expect everything ti be right of cus. but i just want it to be better. slightly better. (:

im struggling.
studies are going down down down for me. not enough time and too many things to study. lectures have not ended and every topics that have been taught, teaching and going to teach will all be tested. how am i to finish? goodness.
yep, promos will be another failure for me. but, how am i going to survive without dropping to 4h2. looks like i can't take a h3 sub. and thats sad. really. ):

i feel so out. i thought it wasn't suppose to be like that. i thought everything was fine. now i understand why. its your choice. its the kind of thinking u have, i will accept it. (:

i have beem a fool anyway and i will continue to be a fool. shall never care anything. im so tired.

quoted from tricia's blog
i so love holidays now.
not that i can get some rest or what.
but i can use the time to catch up with whatever i dont understand now!
haha.
i know that sounds sad or what.
but it's just like that in JC.
probably some in sec sch reading this might be freaking out.
but actually to a certain extent,
JC life can be fulfilling.
it may tire one out,
but when u look back at what u have done,
u will definitely feel 'wow. i didnt know i was that good to handle so many things'
just sort of getting the hang of JC life. =)
seriously,
JC is like damn fun.
the friends that u make are really true friends.
because everyone acts like themselves here (probably only in TJ)
we can just joke about anything and go crazy at the slightest thing.
i just totally love the 18/07 now. =D
so many people that can go siao with me,
suan me,
let me suan them.
lolls.
although sometimes some people are irritating,
but still i have a great bunch of friends around me in 18/07.
ie. junmin, seow, wini, my PW group (fengzi, xr, yuang, koey), donglin, xinjun, randy etc.
these are those relatively closer to me whom i can trust
and tell my problems to.

yesyesyes and i so so agree. hols are like heaven to me now. i love it lots lots lots x 375628572937328957 times. OH NO! hais. really need some mugging and catching up if not i will retain or drop to 3 h2. OH NO no. not gonna let that happen pls. ): hais.

went to visit that monkey yu ang today. poor guy had air bubbles in his lungs and have to go through some operation. gosh, so scary )): hope he gets well soon!

tmr is national day! yes, our very first project. im sure ziko will be feeling super stress now? jiayou everyone! :D:D:D heh heh.

yay, tmr's gonna be a happy day! :D:D i'm going to watch bu neng shuo de mimi with my class!! or rather bu ke gao ren de mi mi according to that xiangrui. LOL! well.. yays. then cut my hair! plus plus, my mum has agreed to buy me a new phone. YESS!! my phone has lotsa problems that its going mad. )): im going mad too! alright. kind of random here. :x ok, im going to do my EOM now. gua gua..

now it's 6.13 and i still can't bring myself to do my written report, which has to be handed in tmomorrow. i'm so slack!! )): yep, was feeling rather pissed just now maybe i was too stressed up over many things. hais. tests are so never ending, and we just have to struggle our way through. people are not cooperating, its just so fustrating.

well. today is the humanities day, although its not very humanities. i did nothing actually. wanted to reach home early just to get my WR done, which obviously i don't know what should i write about.

oh no, and i did something embarrassed please!! )): HAHA. but i don't really care, just feeling kind of wierd. OH NO! kkkkk, off i go! for my dear WR :D